Creative Director | I Am
New year, new me, new projects, new collaborations ✨
In 2018, as my entire life was beginning to unravel, I made one last attempt to hold onto life as I knew it. I pitched a vision for a media agency called HUMAN(EYES) to my Executive Producers at m ss ng p eces, the new-wave production company I was a film director for since graduating from art school.
I imagined myself becoming a Creative Director for mission-driven projects, helping birth a more beautiful world.
For reasons I can’t remember, it didn’t feel like the right initiative for the company to take on. So I leapt off a cliff (or was pushed by life), and left my dream job at the height of my career. I was burnt out and dying while alive, as I’ve written about here and here. But even then I felt insanely grateful for all the incredible projects, experiences and friendships that came from working in film.
Then, in October 2025, seven years after I unsuccessfully pitched HUMAN(EYES), I had a sudden realization: holy shit, I’m finally a Creative Director.
This article serves to celebrate this transition into a new phase of my creative offerings by sharing some of what I’m up to, and actively choosing to live into the construct of Creative Director, as it’s apparently living me. A bit like getting a new haircut and sending a photo to a friend: look, it’s a new me! 😂
What exactly am I creative directing?
This question lives as a mandala in my heart, or like cocentric circles that make up a unified whole.
On some level, I feel myself, and us all, creative directing Life, or Love itself, enacted through moments of care - of showing up - to the perhaps eternal mission of Sacred World building/being/becoming.
This is expressed in part through the unique mythopoesis that I’ve married through vow, which I share the story of here.
A collective tale I tell is that my work is in devotion to culture building our emerging-yet-already-here metamodern future — the world calling us forth through our longing, which is her longing.
From this, a flowering of offerings have emerged, which I could broadly categorize as Seeing, Synthesizing, Storytelling - what I playfully consider my soul superpowers :)
Seeing
The imaginal future-birthing-Now as a regenerative metamodern lighthouse village, which guides us home to the hearth at the center of our hearts, where the warmth of loving wholeness radiates our humanity as expressions of our unfolding divinity.
Synthesizing
The sourcekeeping souls who are creators of this lighthouse village vision, weaving our potential through prayers and courageous acts of showing up for our unique vows, which when collectively cohered creates a mission we steward with unwavering devotion that guides as a bones-deep gnosis, experienced as alignment and resonance.
Storytelling
The transmissions of the future calling us forth, which we experience as the home that’s already here, living in the longing of our devotion to that which we always are, which paradoxically births who we need to become to recognize this.
That’s nice, Tucker. But, like, what are you actually doing?
Okay, enough of the poetics. Let’s get down to business.
I have two new jobs and one new passion project.
I don’t experience them as fundamentally separate, more like facets of a whole which co-inform, co-evolve, co-enact and co-imagine the fullest potential of one another. A big happy family who are all stronger together :)
The three facets (and their brief backstories) are…
Planetary Dharma
Last spring I emailed John Churchill, who I didn’t know personally, asking if I could come to his house in Boulder with a small film crew and interview him for a personal project. He said yes. We filmed for over three hours and got amazing material!
Four months later, I emailed him a prototype of a two minute teaser film using AI video to bring to life the very metamodern regenerative lighthouse village that I mentioned above.
(Side note: Working with AI video is CHALLENGING. I sometimes wanted to pull my hair out in the creative process, lol 🫠 Special thanks to Ari Kuschnir, co-founder of m ss ng p eces, who taught me his AI process, as well as Ari Nazem, who co-created the film with me, and collaborator Matthew Freidell for his creative wizardry.)
A few days after sending in the video draft, John and Nicole invited me to their home. I thought they were going to give me feedback on the film. Instead, to my surprise, they offered me a position on staff at Planetary Dharma as resident Storytelling Weaver.
There were no thoughts involved in this decision making process: it was a clear, immediate yes ⚡
Since October, I’ve been working closely alongside John and Nicole as a creative director for an ever-expanding number of “media mandala” offerings, including directing an upcoming film series, helping support the writing of their first book, producing a music album with the incredible Little Whale, designing an interactive website to catalyze a culture-building movement, and hosting a series of upcoming Boulder village-building gatherings for the local Integral/metamodern scene.
It’s truly been a dream job so far and deeply soul-aligned on levels I hardly knew were possible. I have so much respect for John, Nicole and their beautiful family of two teenagers and three puppies whom I’ve had the pleasure of spending a lot of time with while at the “dharma army” headquarters aka their cozy home :)
Sneak peak: Interview footage-only of John giving a transmission on “Fierce Love” 👇
Check out Planetary Dharma’s offerings, including the monthly Bodhisattva’s Compass as well as their upcoming Open Ground New Years online retreat!
Pacific Integral
In 2021, I signed up for Generating Transformative Change (GTC) after discovering the STAGES model, which found me at a time when I felt quite alone in my developmental unfolding.
A year after the program ended, I co-founded Constructing Consciousness and later Boulder Lighthouse Collective, which birthed over 14 gatherings in five countries in three years. We were so blessed to have my teachers/mentors/friends Geoff Fitch and Abigail Lynam of Pacific Integral join for many of them. Before long they asked me to help facilitate the next GTC Community Gathering, which went great!
My collaboration with Geoff and Abigail continued to deepen when, in 2024, I joined the GTC facilitation team as an apprentice. While I loved organizing and hosting gatherings, I genuinely wasn’t sure if I’d enjoy facilitating. But sure enough, I loved it.
In 2025, I became faculty for GTC, and as of October I officially became staff at Pacific Integral, where, like for Planetary Dharma, I’m creative directing a number of media offerings to help share the gorgeous teachings with a broader audience.
This includes a nine-part film series on the new Seven Facets of Awakened Wholeness model, which Geoff and Abigail are unveiling as a culmination of 20+ years of intimate, leading-edge collective development work.
Our first film, Walking Each Other Home, was released in September:
I’m also collaborating with Scott Merriam on a nine-month media campaign that includes the film series, dialogues with the notorious Layman Pascal, open workshops on each facet, a set of Substack articles, and the launch of PI’s brand new gorgeous website (designed by Scott).
The second film, A Deeper Ground, just launched last week:
One more exciting offering: I’m sourcing and co-leading a weeklong kayaking nature immersion in the San Juan Islands this July where we’ll deep dive into the Seven Facets of Awakened Wholeness via embodied, relational and nature-based practices. More info coming in January!
Sourcekeepers Guild
In late September 2025, Cheryl Hsu, Daniel Thorson, Sabra Saperstein and myself collaborated on Gathering of the Sourcekeepers for 35 incredible metamodern souls in Asheville, N.C.
I had co-organized over 20 collective gatherings prior to Asheville, including the Soulmakers Gathering in collaboration with Cheryl in 2024. But it was clear to me and others at Gathering of the Sourcekeepers that something was different — the collective itself had reached a whole other level of coherence.
It was as if we could feel the metamodern network and its living “egregore” humming with a deepening potency yet grounded with a devoted clarity. Perhaps we were witnessing (and participating in) the Collective itself maturing, developing, evolving and wholing. It was delicious to experience!
From the potency of this field arose a clear next step: Cheryl and I were to co-source a Guild. It was then and there, blessed by the presence and curiosity of our friends, teachers and elders that the Sourcekeepers Guild was born.
“There is almost a sensual longing for communion with others who have a large vision. The immense fulfillment of the friendship between those engaged in furthering the evolution of consciousness has a quality impossible to describe.” —Pierre Teilhard de Chardin
Since Asheville, Cheryl and I have been working nearly every day on the Guild, riding a wave of synchronicities that are showing us again and again how deeply joyful and right it can feel to collaborate on Soul Work, born from the love of our shared friendship.
It’s clear to us both: the time is now. And we’re saying yes - actually: fuck yes - to the call.
Next steps for the Guild:
Continue our 2-1 sourcekeeper calls supporting metamodern friends and their projects, including Patricia Mou’s The Commons, Dechen Ellen’s The Nectary, Ariana Bahrami’s Hy, Nicolas Michaelsen’s Basin Collective, and Ivo J. Mensch’s Worldbuilding School.
Sourcekeepers Europe Gathering this June in Spain at Richard D. Bartlett’s Casa Tilo
First public workshop offering in Washington, D.C. this spring via The Nectary
Opening enrollment for the Guild’s cocentric circles of sourcekeepers, including a Wisdom Council and an Oracular Bodies advisory
Creating the legal structures to source capital, investment and donations from metamodern cultural-building patrons
Subscribe to our Sourcekeepers Guild Substack!
If you’re interested in participating, supporting, investing or resourcing the Sourcekeeping network, please reach out: sourcekeepersguild@gmail.com
A Prayer for 2026
It’s been a journey to get here. From January to July of 2025, I was living in a quiet but unwavering dark night. It wasn’t big and dramatic, which in some ways made it more challenging as it would often go unnoticed by my loved ones. I seemed fine. And I was. Sort of. On the outside.
Inside, it felt like every way that I reach for wholeness, joy, safety and connection outside of “myself” was becoming viscerally illuminated—a continuous gut-churning at how many karmic patterns were still playing out in often extremely subtle and nuanced ways.
The first half of 2025 basically felt like one big pattern purge.
On my birthday week in July, after being cared for so deeply by my beautiful friend Sabra Saperstein while in Portland, Maine (where I was born 35 years earlier), I suddenly felt a shift. In a true moment of grace, while throwing a baseball up into the air on a warm sunny day in my dad’s front lawn, I felt the sun peak through the clouds and shine down onto my weary soul.
And just like that, everything started shifting. As if a six month passage through the underworld of my psyche ended in a singular, simple, effortless moment.
With this came an intuitive knowing that I was about to enter a new chapter of my apprenticeship with Soul. Clear visions of the future emerged from the void, like north stars of clarity calling me forth, not as fantasies but as living relationship with the future unfolding (and in-forming) Now.
I have the distinct felt-sense of entering a five year cycle. Perhaps it’s in part the phase of being a Creative Director. Almost like my past self seven years ago knew this moment was coming, and in writing this now I’m re-membering a particular form of my being that has always been in devotion to creating Sacred World.
In doing so, perhaps I’m creative directing my life into the shape of a prayer: that we can help support each other to show up and serve from soul, as offerings of our love.
That feels like a world worth creating.
May it be so!
To learn more about our emerging metamodern mythos, check out What (the heck) is Metamodernism?
To sense into sourcekeeping metamodern culture, see Sourcekeeping as Soul Work.
To stay up-to-date on the Sourcekeepers Guild, email sourcekeepersguild@gmail.com to be added to our mailing list.
Super cool to read, so many fantastic resources and links here too! Thank you for the work that you do. Also you sound like a cool human :)
It is so good to read this Tucker, to feel the fullness, the clarity, and especially the synchronicities of all that you are given to. I am so grateful for you, your heart and our collaborations!